Once in a while I find out someone I know “outside” my Social Media world has picked up and read my blog: a colleague will mention it in an email exchange, a supplier will mention it in a telephone conversation.
For some reason, when this happens, I find it hard to write the next post. The reason is that I have “the fear” – fear that I’m going to write something too risky or that will breach confidentiality. Knowing someone has read my blog makes me question myself and seeds of doubt grow in my mind.
I take great care whenever I write a post. I might get my inspiration from an event or a conversation, but all my stories are transformed in such a way that it no longer resembles the reality which inspired me. My characters (“friends”) are fictional, and over the last six months their names have all started with the letter “D” (had you noticed?). The whole point of each post is to make a point: it isn’t to expose, humiliate or demonise any particular person or any particular organisation.
There are lots of subjects that I want to write about. But I can’t. It would breach confidentiality, or I would end up in muddy legal waters. I have a rule of never writing about anything that I’m currently working on. And there’s some topics that are still too close to projects that I have completed, but I still feel uncomfortable discussing them in a post. It’s times like these that I really wish I was anonymous, as then I think I would have more freedom to write.
Having said that, I enjoy writing this blog and it has benefits. One client took me on because they had read my blog and liked it. I find that my relationships with new colleagues or other contacts develop more quickly if they have read my blog as they understand how I think and they know my views. (The down-side is that our relationship isn’t on an equal basis, as I don’t have the same background information on them, but this is easily overcome).
One time a coachee quoted my blog in the middle of a coaching session. (It took me a while to realise!) We went on to use the subject matter of that particular post as part of the coaching session. I honestly believe it helped the coachee develop a greater level of insight into the issue.
I know the fear is ridiculous. It often takes two to three weeks to over-come the fear. In that time I struggle to write posts, but continue to do so to meet my self-determined target of at least one post per week. I won’t let the fear beat me.